A friend recently forwarded an email to me titled "The Invisible Mother," a short essay comparing the tireless and often thankless job of a mother to the builders of Europe's great cathedrals. Both give their whole lives for a work they will never see finished, both make sacrifices and expect no credit, and both are fueled in their passion by the faith that the eyes of God see every detail. The writer of the essay was inspired by the thought that our endless efforts in motherhood, invisible as they may seem, are worth it and can make an enriching life.
For many of us, the way we choose to hold our invisibility at bay is by creating something tangible. For me, my days often end with knitting - my love of fiber and the need to do something relaxing end up producing something I can hold and look at. Nobody will know how many times I swept under the high chair that day, or how many toys I picked up, or how many times I tried to coax a "please" or "more" or "sorry" out of my 5 year old. But a darling, handmade infant hat? That you can see.
I start new projects every day, and my 10 year old does the same. In this process of creating (and yes, often not finishing our projects!) we connect with each other and a bigger picture of ourselves in the process. My plan for this blog is to share the projects that excite me and bring some accessible proof of my existence in this invisible world of mothering!
So, this blog is dedicated to the mothers out there whose days are filled with the minutia of tasks that build our children and our families. I often tell people that I haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up. But for now, I am the builder of a great cathedral. With every shoelace tied, lunch packed, and forehead kissed, I build.
And I can hardly wait to create something new...
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Ready, set, FLUSH!
Yesterday, Brad and Rowan joined a Taekwondo school together, and came home with their new uniforms. They each had a patch that needed sewn on front, a task which of course fell to me. I lugged the sewing machine out this morning, said a prayer, and got those puppies sewn on. Not bad! I managed to keep them straight and flat!
I have been trying to figure out what sort of gift to make for my Brownies as a welcome when we start the new year. It finally clicked that since I am using the Brownie Beanie shape for my kaper charts, I could make 16 little bitty beanies to give! Last year, I gave each girl a crocheted daisy with a clip on it - it was so heart warming to see how many of them actually clipped them to their school backpacks! This year they will have little brown beanies to clip on - with the instruction that every time they look at their beanie they can remember the 3 "C's" of scouting: Courage, Confidence, Character. Hope they love them!
Obviously, there is no pattern already out there for such a thing, so I enlisted my brilliant and crafty mother to construct one for me. She figured it out and emailed me the pattern she created. I've made 7 so far, and they are looking darling, if I do say so myself.
I have also been carefully working my way up the length of my lace scarf, one slow row at a time. Brynn's new favorite thing is to constantly have her feet on me. She gets right up next to me on the couch and gets her little flippers positioned perfectly to knock my knitting around, which makes lace work very tricky. Little turkey!